Daily Thoughts #1

I was really hoping that my first journal would be a more positive one then this but sometimes life doesn't go as planned . I feel like my heart is heavy and I'm holding it from falling to the ground. I hate how I tell myself that it's going to be OK and then I feel fine and then two seconds later I start breaking down. I took a nap earlier with this heavy heart. Normally when I'm upset about a situation I go to sleep, wake up and either the problem is resolved or I'm completely over it. Much to my surprise that's not what happened today. I woke up having a great dream but then immediately forgetting all that in my heart became heavy again. My problem has not been resolved. I can't believe that I'm showing this way because I just want to receive a call from the special someone I haven't heard from in a couple days . It's making my anxiety rise and making me think all these crazy thoughts . Like what if their ignoring me when I didn't do anything wrong, what if their ghosting me, what if they did call me but I never got the notification because my phone has been messing up lately, or worse death..... 

then when I Express my anxiety towards this person they just tell me not to worry but it's so hard not to worry when that's the only thing you can do