Daily Thoughts

I'm crying daily - it seems like it is worse now than it was 1 month ago. November 17th will be two months without Holly. I miss her so much and when I think about her I start to cry. There quick tears and the pain isn't as long or drawn out as it was a month ago but it is now daily. It is such a lonely, sad and painful feeling. No one in my immediate support system knows how painful this is. They ask me how I'm doing but really have no idea how difficult this is and how much pain, sadness and loneliness I feel daily. It as if I have no meaning or purpose in my life. I have no "Center" no direction - why do I get up in the morning, why do I continue daily - I feel so empty.