Day 1

The world is my oyster he said. "what do you want to do?". I didn't know where to start. I still don't. I know its bad, but Im not going out of the house today. I am watching useless tv prograsmme after the other and that way I won't go to town, I won't go to my Dad's shed. I will stay right here. Glue free. I havn't had cravings yet, last night I had super cravings so I watched myself high from yesterday and I was retching and nearly puking at 11 at night..It makes me so sick. I have never hated myself so much over something. Day 1 is going alright, average. Glue still holds me prisioner as I am scared to move or do anything incase I find something to sniff. Tomorow I will be at work 7 till 2 and sunday the same. On monday I have an exam I should be fine, tuesday home again and wednesday..well thats the one I am scared about. Its pay day.Ii honestly don't know what I want right now. someone to talk to I guess..someone who I can start again with and they will ask no questions and I will tell no lies.