cutting

i started cutting when i was 10, considering i’m turning 16 in three weeks, it’s been a minute. i’ve been clean for a month or two. i suppose that’s good. but i’ve already scarred up my arms that there isn’t a place i go where i’m not noticed. where my scars aren’t noticed. i’ve gotten a lot of stitches. over 50 total. i cut deeper than average. and that’s why i’m scared to start again. cause i don’t know when to stop. i don’t know if i’ll be able to.