Cryday

Dearest,
   It's Christmas Eve, Very difficult without you. I'm not doing the candles or the music tonight. I can't, I just can't. I never lost anyone so important in my life. I'm not ready, maybe another Christmas. Even without trying I am remembering friends past, all the way back to Vietnam. Think I'll call Stoney, haven't spoken to him in years.
  I'm having a hard time keeping some balance. It's all so unfair, so unjust, it's just not right! I think that's why I get angry, at the injustice, the unfairness. Those things always pissed me off! I've got to work on some understanding, some acceptance or I'll never get through this.
  I did nothing today, fed myself and the cats, took out the garbage and that's it. Slept a little, not so much really. Busy day tomorrow with the grandsons and the birds. Still trying to get some decent pictures of the birds. They just won't sit still! Maybe if I find my balance . . .
Till next time, your Ken

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Hoping you find you your balance on Christmas...~Christi
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I hope you will find some peace tomorrow. The balance part........I think that takes a long time.
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Hoping you can find some peace tomorrow and the new year.
Hugs,
Jean
songsofthenight
songsofthenight

wishing you peace....keeping you in my thoughts and prayers...hugs, Sandi
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The Moody Blues were the first band I ever saw in concert. I was 13 years old and my friend\'s 18 year old sister took us to them at the Spectrum in Philadelphia. It is still one of the highlights of my life. They speak to me.
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You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs, Carla
janalM
janalM

Thank you Ken, the Moody Blues were a special group to my husband and myself. I had forgotten about this song, but it is a good reminded. I hope that you find peace tomorrow. Blessing Jane