cry for help

I'm losing my grip on reality no longer can i see what is in front of me I feel like i'm going crazy and these anti-depressants aren't helping me What do you do when you hit rock bottom And the thing you lost on the way was your sanity My life is far from easy but a smile is all you will ever see A College athlete on scholarship in jeopardy of losing everything Because there is more to her life than what everyone thinks My motivation is gone and i can't find that thing to hold on to What do you do when your mind says give up And the thoughts of the summer is bitter sweet Because home isn't the best place for me To many crazy people in one place I no longer have an escape And the temptation to cut is so great One slit turns to 4 or 5 Next thing i know is that i can't stop And now my body is covered in blood Bitter sweet relief but at what cost Consider this my cry for help :'(