crazy is just crazy

sometimes anxiety is ANXIETY, sometimes ANXIETY is crazy, but what i am looking at right now: crazy is just plain crazy.    there is a medication for that. (ha! there's an app for that).   my prince charming will not take his prescribed antidepressant/anti anxiety because it makes him feel vague.(????????i thought he LIKED vague). here's what i think: he likes the "vague" of alcohol because he can retain his anger, and anger makes him feel powerful and in control. and , i guess, who wouldn't like the stoned feeling of opiates and tranquilizers..  i dont know what his drug of choice is at the moment but it is annoying me.  (not destroying me, just mildly annoyed). PLEASE just please go upstairs and take a nap!!!!!! i do NOT want to have to have a pretend smiley conversation right now.   (oh good there he goes). my guess is tranquilizers....which would be fine if he would just not take that extra one, and then he thinks no one knows. conversation with him is just an exercise in craziness. i find myself just cooing at him as if he were a geriatric dementia patient. which brings me back to the beginning of this rant....there is a med for that. maybe I should be on those antidepressants...... i could use a little vague.  maybe just some ice cream!