crazy day

today has just been a crazy day we have been having alot of them lately. The bipolarness is so hard to handle some days we always seem to work through it. Today she had a tooth ache and wanted me to take her to the er and i got pissed off because she was crying for some reason when she cries it just pisses me off. and then she tried to grab me to calm me down and it scared me so i hit her in the eye. I dont understand how to handle my emotions anymore. I just feel like some times i could put my hand through a wall. its not so bad usually just here lately my anger seems out of control. I need her to be stronger for me im tired of having to always be the strong one. I want her to support me and be there for me it just hurts to know how much we have changed in 4 yrs. its so hard. I need her in ways that i hope she can be. thats how i feel tonight