crazy day
today has just been a crazy day we have been having alot of them lately. The bipolarness is so hard to handle some days we always seem to work through it. Today she had a tooth ache and wanted me to take her to the er and i got pissed off because she was crying for some reason when she cries it just pisses me off. and then she tried to grab me to calm me down and it scared me so i hit her in the eye. I dont understand how to handle my emotions anymore. I just feel like some times i could put my hand through a wall. its not so bad usually just here lately my anger seems out of control. I need her to be stronger for me im tired of having to always be the strong one. I want her to support me and be there for me it just hurts to know how much we have changed in 4 yrs. its so hard. I need her in ways that i hope she can be. thats how i feel tonight
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Hey, it\'s really brave of you to work on getting what you need too, even when the process or your situation is frustrating and angering and saddening. Saying that you need her support can only help things improve. On another note, you talk about how hard it is to see how you have changed. Change does suck and most people don\'t like it at all, but it\'s gotta happen anyway. However, change can be good as well, and so I hope that you have positive change from your hard work with your girlfriend to make the relationship work for both of you. :-)
I can understand. I have a partner and well I guess you can say she is the man in the relationship or the (pants), she works and supports the family. I am a stay at home mom and try to help out the most I can. I do not like to see her cry either, it makes her seem more like a girl or wimpy I guess. I always expect her to be strong and keep it together. I know that is selfish and wrong but It is still how I feel. HUGS I hope things get better.