crash course in depression
I'm usually a happy go lucky person, I've beat hep c with a treatment which left my hep c inactive for over 6 years . I quit smoking cigs. Over 8 years ago. I reached out to my ds friends also march 2010 when my mom passed away, it was so painful. But still I had the optimistic personality. Then I ended up with a job in may 2013. Pretty happy. we my husband and I had opened our home to a friend as a roommate who had no where else to go. My husband and I had also started a wonderful church april 19th 2009, the year before my mom died, I had always thought of it as God's forsight of how much I needed Him and a solid church family.
The year of 2014 became the year of hell, first my 23 year old niece died of a heroin overdose January 10th, ( not the one I helped she's still over 3 years clean, though it was her sister). Then my brother got out of prison October 12th having been there 10 years and I had a sister who was looking forward to his release more than anyone except him of course. She is the mother of the sisters who were heroin addicts.
Anyway she overdosed on prescription drugs oct 16 didn't get to see my brother and he came straight up for her funeral, staying at my house. Then the roommate was having a lot of medical problems, taking his medicine wrong abusing it and the week after my sisters death,he started a big fight with me threw stuff screamed at me broke his bedroom door, so after 2 years, I kicked him out. He knew how much I was hurting, he showed no compassion and was very selfish. . Then the roommate called my work and caused me to lose my job.
My brother was very kind and helpful through all this. I actually hadn't seen him for about 18 years so I sincerely enjoyed our time together. He was trying to get his life straight riding a bicycle until he could get his drivers license reinstated. Well on the night of February 11th he was riding the bike and was hit by a car and killed. He swerved into them the driver did nothing wrong. He needed better reflectors and maybe shouldn't have been riding in the dark on a main highway. Regardless of small details, he was gone at the young age of 52.
I feel like I can't take anymore.
The year of 2014 became the year of hell, first my 23 year old niece died of a heroin overdose January 10th, ( not the one I helped she's still over 3 years clean, though it was her sister). Then my brother got out of prison October 12th having been there 10 years and I had a sister who was looking forward to his release more than anyone except him of course. She is the mother of the sisters who were heroin addicts.
Anyway she overdosed on prescription drugs oct 16 didn't get to see my brother and he came straight up for her funeral, staying at my house. Then the roommate was having a lot of medical problems, taking his medicine wrong abusing it and the week after my sisters death,he started a big fight with me threw stuff screamed at me broke his bedroom door, so after 2 years, I kicked him out. He knew how much I was hurting, he showed no compassion and was very selfish. . Then the roommate called my work and caused me to lose my job.
My brother was very kind and helpful through all this. I actually hadn't seen him for about 18 years so I sincerely enjoyed our time together. He was trying to get his life straight riding a bicycle until he could get his drivers license reinstated. Well on the night of February 11th he was riding the bike and was hit by a car and killed. He swerved into them the driver did nothing wrong. He needed better reflectors and maybe shouldn't have been riding in the dark on a main highway. Regardless of small details, he was gone at the young age of 52.
I feel like I can't take anymore.
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I\'m so sorry to hear all of this. It has taken me a few days to respond because I simply don\'t know what to say. This sounds like a few years ago when we lost my sister-in-law and brother-in-law to cancer and my mother-in-law. This was at the same time that our 18 year old son was in full-scale addiction.
Sometimes tragedies just seem to come in bunches. It can leave you reeling, wondering what is going to happen next. But, life can and does get better. Just take extra good care of yourself (and your niece), and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
You have come such a long way with your own life and you were a help to your niece, your roommate and your brother. Now it\'s time to focus on your own needs. Don\'t be afraid to ask for whatever help you need to get through this.
Thank you for sharing, and for your advice.