Cowboy

Hi Babe, no fair. You went to work and didn't come home. I have a hard time with my thoughts, they are all over the place. I run up stairs to give you a call only to realize I can't. Kids all came home, we had been trying for ever to get them together. All but Jess. Kids in school and all. We will say goodbye in the summer. I kept hearing help me and thought I needed to go to you. I realized you wanted me to help by not losing it. Stay the course right. I got a call ,mom I saw a sheriff go by. Said oh they're going to the end of the road. Got a call, hey how you doing and some dumb reason for calling. Go down stairs to see lights at the gate. Horn blaring . I think who could that be ? Oh the sheriff,  maybe one of the animals is out. Throw clothes on ,head down the drive. All the time something telling me Houston we have a problem. Halfway down the drive I asked is there something wrong? Walk some more, did something happen? Walk some more, they come in and run to my side. There has been an accident you have been killed. The rest is a blur. 1st week down . People came and went ,hugs ,love you, house full , taking care of arrangements.  Damn it , I keep waiting for a call. I always fell asleep with my head on your chest, I could hear your Heart beat. I'm trying Babe , this is not easy.