Courage
Every day I wake up and wonder if the days are going to get better. I wonder if I will see a day when I wont be so angry and sad? Angry at who? I dont know for sure. Im just angry that our son was taken us with a week and and a half left to his due date. Will I ever feel whole again? Will I ever feel like going out of the house by myself. Before we lost our son I welcomed the time by myself. I was a spunky,fun person. I have lost that and I dont know if that will ever be back again. I feel like a chunk of my heart and soul was cut out and buried with our son. Some day I hope to be the same fun loving person I once was if only to be that for our daughter.
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I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby boy. I lost my son Lucas on January 16th and I can remember having those same feelings, I actually still struggle with many of them still. Like you, I considered myself outgoing and fun...carefree even. I now find myself way more reserved and super private. I am definitely a shell of the person I once was. The good news is, every now and then I do something arbitrarily that is a reminder of the \"old Lisa\". So although I realize I will never be entirely the same as I once was, I know that over time I will get most of me back and I look forward to that day...whenever it may be. Please be gentle with yourself and know that everything you are feeling is normal. Please take care...hugs, Lisa