Courage

Every day I wake up and wonder if the days are going to get better. I wonder if I will see a day when I wont be so angry and sad?  Angry at who?  I dont know for sure. Im just angry that our son was taken us with a week and and a half left to his due date. Will I ever feel whole again? Will I ever feel like going out of the house by myself.  Before we lost our son I welcomed the time by myself. I was a spunky,fun person. I have lost that and I dont know if that will ever be back again.  I feel like a chunk of my heart and soul was cut out and buried with our son. Some day I hope to be the same fun loving person I once was if only to be that for our daughter.