Well today marks my first real day or trying to let go of what I once had and make myself realize I deserve better and stop being put through the torture. I feel like half my soul is lost. It\'s probably the hardest decision I\'ve made without force in my life.. just keep reminding myself to look to God and push forward..
Now I\'m going on day 5 and if anything its getting harder. My brain knows I deserve better but also is so scrabble by all the emotional turmoil that it doesn\'t even trust it\'s own opinions right now.. having a hard time just staying sane really..
Wow has times been testing lately.. I\'ve had more court dates than anyone wants plus unexpected life stifles have certainly taken a tole on me. But I have yet to fail or give up. I may be a mess but I\'m still trying and that\'s what counts. Just trying to get my relationship back on track is two full time jobs and the most mentally exhausting experience of my life this far.. Just praying the outcome is worth the effort like I see it to be..
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Well today marks my first real day or trying to let go of what I once had and make myself realize I deserve better and stop being put through the torture. I feel like half my soul is lost. It\'s probably the hardest decision I\'ve made without force in my life.. just keep reminding myself to look to God and push forward..
Now I\'m going on day 5 and if anything its getting harder. My brain knows I deserve better but also is so scrabble by all the emotional turmoil that it doesn\'t even trust it\'s own opinions right now.. having a hard time just staying sane really..
Wow has times been testing lately.. I\'ve had more court dates than anyone wants plus unexpected life stifles have certainly taken a tole on me. But I have yet to fail or give up. I may be a mess but I\'m still trying and that\'s what counts. Just trying to get my relationship back on track is two full time jobs and the most mentally exhausting experience of my life this far.. Just praying the outcome is worth the effort like I see it to be..