could it really be

could i have been blinded by my own depression that i stole my true friends happiness away.
could it be that i am not the person that i percieve myself to be
should i have said no on the altar that day when the judge was standing and sak me to say
i do
should i have said no does he hate me that much
do i hate my self that much now yes i actually do its true
Have i ruined everything
it wouldnt be a surprise
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

this is so not about you honey...you haven\'t done anything wrong. I feel your pain so much for you.
myrachie
myrachie

I dont know what it is pain frustration
deleted_user
deleted_user

probably a little of both! Don\'t worry about ruining his life...you are not responsible for his choices. hopefully things will begin to settle in your mind. just be there for your daughter and your husband and things will unfold the way they were meant to.
myrachie
myrachie

I guess this is true
myrachie
myrachie

I guess this is true