could it really be

could i have been blinded by my own depression that i stole my true friends happiness away.
could it be that i am not the person that i percieve myself to be
should i have said no on the altar that day when the judge was standing and sak me to say
i do
should i have said no does he hate me that much
do i hate my self that much now yes i actually do its true
Have i ruined everything
it wouldnt be a surprise