Could I forgive her completely if asked?

Today was her 1 month anniversary from running off with her ex. I text her this morning saying that i hope she celebrated this day and to do something in remembrance of the date.  She told me she wasnt happy about it but hoped i found someone to love me.  ouch, i guess women dont have such an issue with someone else sleeping with their mate like a man does. 
when I got to work I asked her two questions, 1 being, do you think you have gone too far to turn back?  her answer was "good question".  and the other question was 2 : do you feel i wouldnt take you back and completely forgive you?
I didnt get any response so I asked her if she got my text? She said yes and would answer later.
What was I thinking when I did this?  My family as a whole.  I was looking at my daughter and heard her say she wished mommy would come home.  so I just had to try one last time.  This has been so hard on me.  I am still looking for the nightmare to end and i wake up breathing hard.
I am hurting so much today, I had to drive to another state to visit another office i am covering.  long alone time and so thinking and praying was most of the trip.  Man i feel so weak today about everything. tomorrow i will wake up mad and be upset i said anything at all i believe. Or she will be that mr hyde that i hate. 
 

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Sorry for your pain. Read everything you can about relationshps if you\'re a reader. I started reading AFTER my divorce as all I wanted was to be rid of the pedophile. There\'s also a book called \"An Affair Of The Mind\" and it talks about some people simply have an addiction to sex w/others and can\'t be monogamous no matter how great their partner. Tht\'s my ex. He pleaded w/me not to divorce him, but I\'m not gong to stay w/someone who hs a PATTERN of cheating and lying. Enough was enough and I felt no respect for almost 15 years or longer b4 getting a divorce. I stayed for my kids until findng out he is a pedophile and arrested for it. That did it for me and I even let the creep stay another two years as the kids begged me so he wouldn\'t take them out of their private school where they were safe until I could no longer tolerate him peeping in my windows and hiding in my bathtub so he could \"peep\" some more. Finally, my kids said enough is enough and I was relieved. You deserve someone else. When a partner says that, they\'re done. Yes, we women do care if someone we\'re still in love with is with someone else, but not if it is over. Try to accept that maybe she was never over her ex as I had to deal w/that with the last guy I was seeing. His divorce wasn\'t final after 3years of separation and my light fnally came on and I just ended it because I felt I deserved more than just being a rebound or spoke in his wheel. No, I don\'t want to hear about if he\'s with her or someone else, but wmy ex...that\'s fine. I don\'t care.
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I think this is a great goal! I know its hard to imagine now but you will be happy again, but you just have to remember happiness is not ever found in another person. Hang in there, things will get better as time goes on and if you let him God will bring a greater good out of this for you and your precious daughter.