Could I forgive her completely if asked?

Today was her 1 month anniversary from running off with her ex. I text her this morning saying that i hope she celebrated this day and to do something in remembrance of the date.  She told me she wasnt happy about it but hoped i found someone to love me.  ouch, i guess women dont have such an issue with someone else sleeping with their mate like a man does. 
when I got to work I asked her two questions, 1 being, do you think you have gone too far to turn back?  her answer was "good question".  and the other question was 2 : do you feel i wouldnt take you back and completely forgive you?
I didnt get any response so I asked her if she got my text? She said yes and would answer later.
What was I thinking when I did this?  My family as a whole.  I was looking at my daughter and heard her say she wished mommy would come home.  so I just had to try one last time.  This has been so hard on me.  I am still looking for the nightmare to end and i wake up breathing hard.
I am hurting so much today, I had to drive to another state to visit another office i am covering.  long alone time and so thinking and praying was most of the trip.  Man i feel so weak today about everything. tomorrow i will wake up mad and be upset i said anything at all i believe. Or she will be that mr hyde that i hate.