Oral rape

I was wondering if anyone on here has experienced having oral sex forced upon them. How do you cope and overcome this? As far as me I hate being touched like that now. I can't and don't tell my boyfriend this. I just lay there and pretend to enjoy it so much that I can fake an orgasm and it be over quick. To me oral sex is one of the most intimate acts on earth. To have it forced on me by a stranger 10 minutes after meeting them is the worst. I can't get over it. I've been forced to get over the penetration because of not I'd loose my mind. So I've forced that out of my mind but the oral part....i can't shake it. Am I the only one?