Convention in November
I'm sorry I haven't written on here for about a week. I have been extremely busy working on an exegetical for school, that I am close to finishing up. Last weeks counseling session was helpful. She gave me techniques in which to ground myself when I have a flashback. The ones I have had are in regards to body memories, which are horrible. This Friday is "Take Back the Night," and I plan on going to that, whether providing. I am passionate about helping others who have gone through the same situation as me because I do not want anyone to go through it. I still hate the fact that he drugged me, but my feelings toward him are very ambivalent. One part of me wants him to come to Christ, and the other part hates him with a passion for what he did. How do you all handle your feelings towards those who hurt you? Any advice? I am going to the National Missionary Convention in Tulsa, OK from November 20-23, 2008. I am so excited, and the nice thing is that it is FREE since I am working at a homeless shelter doing inner city missions. God is so good!!! Love ya!!!
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First things first, don\'t worry about us here take care of your school work-you are too close to graduation-do what you have to do, I\'ll still be here waiting on you and the good news:). New tips from counseling, I hope that it works for you..it does take time to find what works for you and the situation.
Forgiveness prayerfully with the Lord, forgiveness to and for them which sometimes is easier said than done. Practice, practice, practice is usually the going task at hand on applying forgiveness and the why me. I always say to myself..why not you? The other key for me is to remember that I AM WHO GOD SAYS THAT I AM, no matter what anyone else may says or what has be done to me! PRAYERFULLY, RESPECTFULLY AND KEEPING IT REAL TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE ELSE IS WORST OFF THAN ME!!!! Praise God for the ability to take away my hurts and pain. Praise God that He bore the sins of all mankind and my reality is that He took it for that rape against me--making it very personal and specifically. I thank God for thinking of me and loving me that much.
when i have memories of things that have happened i try to invite forgiveness into that situation and i ask for their salvatin and for God to reveal Himsef to them. and i also pray for the healing of my memories, i invite God into the memories and lift them up to Him. that has helped a lot, counseling has helped a lot and so did EMDR......
i pray that God will continue to bring healing into the depth of your soul.
best wishes with school.
Pray part of me feels the same give it God and part of me has hate its so hard and go to take back the night I wish I had that I would love it. I would go a long time ago I went, but what I did is write a letter to the person who hurt you put everything and then burn it and watch it burn it did help me. Good luck