Control in My Life
I’m discovering that I pretty much know who I am. I know what I value, what my morals are, what kind of company I keep. Definitely not a perfect person, but that’s what growth is all about. What I’m still in the process of doing is figuring out “how” I want to live. For example, let fear dictate my life, or let my actions dictate my life? What is really in my control right now? I can’t control others or their feelings or their problems. But I can manage how I live with them. I can’t control my son (I’d give a million dollars to be able to!), but I can manage how to care for him and what actions I should take in his life. Right now, I feel as though I’m a ship in a storm and I’m battening down whatever hatches I can, fastening the loose sails. I can’t influence the storm, but I can manage how the storm influences me! Things I can control: · health (exercise, diet, water intake, vitamins)· thoughts (including emotions, though they can be triggered—but why?· how I dress (currently limited by wardrobe, but what I pick is my choice)· how I spend my time (at work, home, and free time)· how I spend my money (what I spend it on, when I spend it, how much)· how I treat other people (family, friends, co-workers, etc.)· the words that come out of my mouth Conversely, I can’t control these things in other people. Influence to an extent, perhaps, but not control.