Contantly sick!

I am so sick all the time. It's alway one thing or another. I have been have bowel, bladder, and kidney issues! My doctors dont work together and that is making me so upset! I am have issues with my schizoaffective disorder too! I cant seem to get anything better before one more thing comes my way! I am all alone! i have people saying that they are there for me but in order for that to be true they ALL have to grow the fuck up! I only have my professional team at my side! It's not enough! My family is clueless! I can't talk to them EVER! I am lossing touch with reality and no one knows enough to give a fuck! I don't know what to do! I am stuck in a body but I feel already dead! dont worry friends I will not commit sucide! I'm already dead so I don't need to commit a sin! I am numb and  I am on my medications so I am so confussed! I don't have any doctors that will listen to me! NONE! No one understands me! No one gets what I have trapped in my head! By the time I get the truth out will it be to late??