constant fear of dying

I am so frustrated that I cannot move past this fear of dying.  Since my anxiety began six months ago I have diagnosed myself with bone cancer, breast cancer(multiple times), brain tumor, blood clots in my legs and just when I thought I was getting through all of this I read an article about Ovarion Cancer and can't get it out of my mind.  I now have all of the symptoms of it and am scared to death.  I can't stop goggling symptoms or going on webmd even though I promised my therapist that I wouldn't do that.  I am so sick of feeling this way and starting to feel like it is never going to get any better and that I am going to live in constant fear.   

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I can vent right along with you. I was convinced a week ago, i had melenoma, skin cancer because of my moles, and i went to a dermatologist and ofcourse all is well. I hate when my kids get sick cause because i think its something like cancer, swine flu, west nile u name it, i have it, or they have it. its horrible. my poor husband is constantly telling me all is well, but its hard. when i have a headache, its a stinkin tumor. when my chest hurts, i have heart problems, once i saw an episode of HOUSE and i had some rare disease the next day. i can say, it happens less, if i dont read the papers, and if i dont google, therapy helps but its not a quick curing process. hang in there, i know what u are going through. u can vent to me anytime. as long as i can to you..lol
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You know your therepist is right. I had to go thru an internet detox to even begin to feel better. And web MD is the worse. No matter what symptom you have they tell you to go to the hospital and that you are going to die. Look at it this way, they have to tell you the worse case scenario to cover themselves if they say your fine and something is wrong you would probably try and sue right? Really try and get away from the internet and when you feel you need to look something up try to distract yourself, like maybe read a book or do something you enjoy instead.