connect the dots

Thoughts are all muddled.
Can't connect the dots.
Trying to see through your eyes.
Trying to understand.
But I can't connect the dots.
I aimlessly wander. 
Trying to see whats true.
Trying to understand why you do what you do.
I get mad.
I get upset.
I just want to give up.
Cause I can't connect the dots.
Holding on takes strength.
But giving up can be just as tough.
Letting go.
Throwing my hands up.
I'm frustrated. 
I'm angry.
I'm sad.
I wish I could connect the dots.   
Alone in my mind.
Alone in my heart.
So, so alone.
Words are pointless.
Speech isn't heard.
Misconstrued.
YOU don't want to connect the dots.
Hoping you'll change.
Endless hopes that become doubts.
You don't care.
So here I stand.
Alone.
Empty.
All becasue we couldn't connect the dots.