Confuzled

I dont like my body. I dont like how makeup makes me feel. I generally enjoy the nice safety of wearing a pair of pants than a skirt or dress. I think a lot of the things I feel are wanting to be gender-nonconforming. My issue is I dont want to have a chest. Or wide hips. But I dont necessarily want male genitalia. Erggggggg. Also I want to change my first name to Teagan which is gender neutral instead of my birth name which is more female.