Confused and Scared

I have my Laparoscopy next week and im thinking of quitting university this semester or for the year as it's too difficult via distance education (not enough support etc). I feel like I've failed myself something terrible - All I want is to be a Primary school teacher especially after having done it for a year... I moved states to be with my partner which I dont regret but being rejected into uni is a MASSIVE bump in the road and to not be able to possibly ever finish my degree (there's not garantee I'll get in next year either) is hurting me so bad. Im scared for next week and what they'll find and I know there's a possibility they might find nothing at all but I'm scared for if they do.  I hardly leave the house at the moment due to this distance education degree and I think I've actually slumped into depression. My parents think having a year off from uni will do me good and my wonderful partner will do anything to help me achieve my dreams. I just wish I had more will power to get things done - to be independent and to do things. Im fearful of ruining everything - I know how immature this might sound, but sometimes I just wish my parents were around the corner (I havnt seen them in over 3 months).....  I'm so lost I know im not alone, with a wonderful boyfriend, wonderful parents and wonderful friends - but I can't shake this feeling and when I think I have I fall emotionally all over again...