confused

Well ladies, I had some spotting today. SO for sure AF will arrive. I am so confused about whether to go through with the IUI.. Do I put myself through the added frustration and stress?? I feel like my heart is telling me to just walk through and not put so much pressure on myself. My heart aches with sadness BUT I AM FIGHTING TO STAY POSITIVE BECAUSE I DONT Like being sad. I have cried and moped around and I just dont want to be like that today!! ITs not worth it! I am thankful for my job, husband, and life. There were over 70,000 lay offs on Monday. I am healthy!! I am just left with the question? DO I have the IUI or just put having a baby away for now...