Compliments

I hate compliments over pretty much anything in this world. Why do i hate them? because they are just words and i hate that they are just empty meaningless words.
"Your beautiful"= (in my head) im not but okay thanks
"your the best"= im not but okay thanks
every single freaking compliment is the same, i wish i could be the things people compliment me on.... i really do.. i wish i could be beautiful, and amazing and perfect and the best but i cant see that... all i see is the negative comments i have acquired throughout my life.. all the things ive messed up on...i guess all im trying to say is i feel bad.. i feel bad when my best friend, or my boyfriend compliment me and i dont believe it and it just goes in one ear and out the other...
 
 
"sticks and stones, may break my bones but words will haunt me forever"