Completely ridiculous rant & update.

For once I would like to go to a Doctor and get GOOD news...
So FINALLY my Endocrinologist appointment was today.. My grandparents took me so I didn't have to take 2 buses which was nice. Only I find with older people they tend to get ready and want to leave hours before the appointment. We got there an hour early. It took them about 45 minutes AFTER the scheduled appointment to see me. BUt, the doctor was really nice, as well as the nurse. I was very comfortable. We discussed my family history, my history, etc etc etc.
Then they tested me for diabetes, and took like 5 virals of blood. Fun...
I have pre-diabetes..
I am like a percentage under diabetes..
Great...
They want me to continue taking the progesterone, but now I will be taking Metformin as well. And next week I have to see a Dietician. 
I don't know how I feel right now.. 
Last year I found out I have PCOS right after my birthday. Now, I found all this out before my birthday.
I know it can be worse.. But I am just not happy..
I called my Dad. He made me feel better. Now my Mom is home, she made me feel worse.
Waiting for my best friend to call me so I can have a laugh.
I was supposed to go out bar hopping for my birthday. I really don't want to go. I just want to go to Yonkers and hang out with my best friend. Sober fun birthday. But of course my "friends" over here are trying to convince me to go party with them.
I think I am going to cancel with them. It's my birthday. I should be happy not miserable.
Update over for now.. My mood is just getting crappy..
All I want is like a double chocolate/vanilla shake and chinese food.
Fuck pre-diabetes. Fuck PCOS. Fuck heart murmurs. Fuck fatty livers. Fuck anxiety/depression.
I just want to be perfect. Can't I just be perfect?
=/