Completely lost

I cant even describe how I feel. Words cant take the place of fear or anger or being alone. I feel torn and confused. I dont know what I want anymore. I know I want to leave, but where is the question? College is right around the corner, Im kind of nervous. I hope I like it there because that dorm room will become home for me soon. I feel helpless, hopeless. Whoever knew life could be so bad?