Commitment

"Many a man has walked up to the opportunity for which he has long been preparing himself, looked it full in the face, and then begun to get cold feet...when it comes down to betting on yourself and your power to do the right thing you know you must do OR write yourself down a failure, your a chicken livered coward if your hesitate." B.C. Forbes I feel hesitation and it is starting to lead to desperation.  I know in my heart that I havent committed myself 100% to not gambling.    "One thing I know for sure, if I am not 100% committed, I will give up/in"  SheliaMACI MUST make a committment in my head and my heart.  I must....... I do not have any spare change lying around @ the moment, but come 6/5 I will have cash and my daughter will be @ her Dad's for the weekend.  (and that spare change is some of our vacation money)   I have to make a committment and make it now before the devil makes up my mind for me.  Little Beezlebub just got flicked off my shoulder...  ha ha  

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi Shelia :)

Where are you going to go for vacation? How old is your little one? Please start telling yourself you can do this...NEVER, EVER GIVE UP... Gambling is no longer an option. When I really grasped the concept of \"one day at a time\", my life started improving in so many ways. I started to understand that I could change, if I wanted to. I didn\'t have to be so hard on myself, I didn\'t have to hate myself, if I didn\'t want to. All that good advice I was giving others, I started taking myself...no one else ever did...well, maybe once in a while. But that\'s not the point I\'m trying to make. In a nut shell, I\'m trying to tell you that one of the biggest part of my recovery has been to allow myself, to like myself. It\'s pretty cool, and WOW, amazing to me! I\'m learning to be my own best friend, without feeling selfish, and guilty. It didn\'t happen over night, just little by little. Somehow I knew, I would never begin to lead a more normal life if I continued to gamble, because when I was out there, actively gambling, I thought I was losing my mind! If I\'m gonna\' lose my mind, and that could happen, I suppose...lol, just a little...I don\'t want it to be because of my gambling addiction. Stay focused on saving for your vacation, little by little the \"spare change\" will grow...Shelia...you can do this! Here for you, Love, Robin
SheliaMac
SheliaMac

Robin --- Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Your words are full of wisdom and come with inspiration attached. I am printing this page so I will have it to read, over and over. Here\'s my problem at the momemt: I have yet to grasp the concept of \"one day at a time\". I am still in mourning.. The thought of never gambling again is very saddening to me. I think if I can get a grip on the \"one day at a time\" and quit looking @ the big picture of never gambling again, my focus will come to me. Or.. maybe I am just making excuses to not have to say \"I will NEVER Gamble again\".
At this moment, I can say \"I will not gamble for 100 days\" and mean it, make a commitment to it and try my very hardest to attain that goal. But... I cannot say -- \"I will never gamble again\" Do you think I am just making excuses, leaving the door open for re-entry?

Ohhh... my family! I have two daughters and one son in law. Kasey is 20 and Alex is 13. We are going to Dallas in a few weeks and ride some coasters!!!!
DianneE
DianneE

In the beginning, I could not get my head around never gambling again...and \"one day at a time\" is what made it possible for me to stop gambling. I am almost at 17 mos of no gambling now, and life is much, much better.

It doesn\'t matter if we say \"I will never gamble again\"...if we say \"just for today, I will not gamble\"....just for today can grow into years!

Any great task broken down into smaller parts becomes more manageable!
SheliaMac
SheliaMac

\"just for today, I will not gamble\"....