Coming UNDONE!! SUCKS!
Well my third IVF was a bust and I just don't know what to do. I am in desperate need of support. I am out for summer break and it's hard not to think about being a mom. This week I felt anger, frustration, happiness, bitterness. I have been on here since 2008 and watch so many wonderful women get their BFP's and can't understand why I finally received a BFP just to have him past away live 2 days and God take him and here I am at square 1. I waited a year, tried to get to a good place, lost 40 pounds and waited to see if it just would "happen". and of course it hasn't. I am in complete despair and feel so along. It feels like a cruel punishment. So today I am not good and thats just that.
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If i could, you would be holding your precious one now...I wish that I could say that it gets easier...the other day I found a photo album with an ultra sound of my only viable pregnancy which end a week after it was taken. Though I have Emma now (thanks to adoption), it still hurts knowing that ther e should have been another older sibling for her. Sometimes we have to be in a dark place because everything does brighten up later. Allow yourself to feel and treat yourself as much as possible because you deserve it. Sending lots of hugs and prayers.
I\'m sorry dear! I understand ur frustration. I\'ve been trying for 3 years now and had 2 losses and no living children. Hugs!!
I get where you\'re coming from I really do... Even after adopting I still get the \"why me\'s\" at least once a week. You don\'t really get over it, but it does get better. Along with BFP\'s miracles also happen on here all the time hang in there you\'re not alone...
Stay encouraged... I know how hard it is to fall into a depression. Praying that your womb will be touched by whoever you believe in and that whatever is blocking your Blessing will be moved. Praying that your next IVF is successful and that 37 weeks later you are holding a living screaming healthy baby who will watch you grow old.
Many hugs!!!
Nneka
I am so sorry,the hardest thing in the world is to lose a child and you feel as if you\'re being punished.Im here if you need to vent or talk
Just sending you a big hug. I know how dark these times are, when it seems like there is no hope. But as long as your RE thinks it\'s worth continuing to try, then there is still hope!