Coming out of the closet as well...
Well... since Cloris had the courage to come out and admit something that I know was hard to say, I dont want her to be alone - I will too. I myself gambled saturday. I dont like what I did, especially since I was only a day away from 60 days. But it is my bed to lie in, and that's what I did all day Sunday.
But I know now, its not any different at 60 days than it was at 1 day. Still want to stay and gamble as long as I can -- still felt bad afterwards. BUT --- It made realize something, made me really appreciate the money I had been saving over the last few months. And I really, really came to enjoy having money for things besides the casino. And I want it to stay that way, I dont want that broke, desperate feeling back. I didnt break my bank, but I sure wasnt thinking about how long it took me to save that money when it only took me about 4 hours to spend it.
Gosh... I sure hate counting days. So instead of being back at day 1, I am back at square one. But I have learned and realized so much in the last 60 days. I have faith that the next 60 will be wonderful and blessed. I will get back on that pony, will have to strap that saddle a little tighter this time.
Oh yea... for all of those that havent been to a casino in a while -- congratulations and keep on keeping on. For those of you wondering/thinking/contemplating on going --- Its the same ole hell hole that will suck you in and spit you out in a heartbeat!!!
But I know now, its not any different at 60 days than it was at 1 day. Still want to stay and gamble as long as I can -- still felt bad afterwards. BUT --- It made realize something, made me really appreciate the money I had been saving over the last few months. And I really, really came to enjoy having money for things besides the casino. And I want it to stay that way, I dont want that broke, desperate feeling back. I didnt break my bank, but I sure wasnt thinking about how long it took me to save that money when it only took me about 4 hours to spend it.
Gosh... I sure hate counting days. So instead of being back at day 1, I am back at square one. But I have learned and realized so much in the last 60 days. I have faith that the next 60 will be wonderful and blessed. I will get back on that pony, will have to strap that saddle a little tighter this time.
Oh yea... for all of those that havent been to a casino in a while -- congratulations and keep on keeping on. For those of you wondering/thinking/contemplating on going --- Its the same ole hell hole that will suck you in and spit you out in a heartbeat!!!
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