Come on man!

I know I can do this, I can do better though... When I created this goal I called it "zero tolerance" but then I have slipped in a few "just this" or a little "its ok" here and there. I can be proud that I have stayed away from the casino for quite a while now, I dont know exactly but it has to be about 6 or 8 weeks. But I have told myself that I can play poker or a few "small" tickets here and there. But where is it getting me? It still just wastes my time and takes my focus and attention away from more important things. Starting today I am going until christmas without spending a dime on anything!
 
 
edit - just for the record I should remind myself how much I actually hate poker, or more specifically online poker. if i play well i get unlucky, and more often than not I dont have the patience and play poorly and lose even faster. for example the guy who keeps raising from his big blind so when i play him that way and hit 2 pair he gets a horseshoe and hits a set, or when I get pocket kk and play it perfectly to triple up with the best hand i get sucked out on with only one card to come... and there is a million examples and there will be a million more if i dont just stop playing. I might be losing less than I was at the casino and staying within a "budget" but its still not money I can afford to throw away!