College!
So I am currently waiting on my acceptance letter- I already got accepted the fall semester and declined, so I don't think I'll have any trouble getting into the school. I'm just really fucking anxious because I want that letter in my hand. There's no reason it should take this long! Ugh.
My parents, mother especially, are just being generally very unhelpful about this whole thing. My mother keeps expressing skepticism that it's even happening. I have applied to the school, I have applied for loans and this is happening (I'm almost certainly willing to bet I got in!) I mentioned the other day I had to start packing, and she was like "We don't even know if you're going!" She is just sitting back and saying whatever happens, happens. That is bullshit because if you sit back NOTHING will happen, and I had to do most of this on my own. I know I'm supposed to be independent, but all my friends had help from their parents with this, and it sucks. My mother just blows it away.
As time passes I am more and more bored and restless here. I really hate it here, especially at this school. I'm still scared to go and it makes me cry to think about, but I want to go because nothing is happening here and nothing ever will. I want to at least try to make friends, find a relationship and most importantly, find myself. That won't happen at home and I'm ready to blow my brains out.
Once I have the letter in my hands to show my parents I can force them into action. There is so much stuff that needs to be done and I want to start now, but I need help and everyone's just laying on their asses.
My parents, mother especially, are just being generally very unhelpful about this whole thing. My mother keeps expressing skepticism that it's even happening. I have applied to the school, I have applied for loans and this is happening (I'm almost certainly willing to bet I got in!) I mentioned the other day I had to start packing, and she was like "We don't even know if you're going!" She is just sitting back and saying whatever happens, happens. That is bullshit because if you sit back NOTHING will happen, and I had to do most of this on my own. I know I'm supposed to be independent, but all my friends had help from their parents with this, and it sucks. My mother just blows it away.
As time passes I am more and more bored and restless here. I really hate it here, especially at this school. I'm still scared to go and it makes me cry to think about, but I want to go because nothing is happening here and nothing ever will. I want to at least try to make friends, find a relationship and most importantly, find myself. That won't happen at home and I'm ready to blow my brains out.
Once I have the letter in my hands to show my parents I can force them into action. There is so much stuff that needs to be done and I want to start now, but I need help and everyone's just laying on their asses.
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Blah!!!!! Anxiety!!!! I\'m so sorry you\'re feeling a good dose of it right now!!!! I hope it abates soon!!!!
Yeah, it sounds like your mom isn\'t too good when it comes to giving you help and support, which is really unfortunate. I hope your letter arrives soon and it heralds good news and that your parents step up to the plate and help you do what you need to do to transition from where you are now to where you\'ll be going!!!
Please try to resist blowing your brains out. You\'ll never get to reach any of the goals you have, if you\'re not around to try!!!!!
I\'ve got to tell you, though -- you\'re really good at doing things for yourself!!! I don\'t think I could have done all that stuff involved with applying to a school or for grants or anything when I was your age!!!! (I\'d be a basket case if I had to do it NOW!!!)
So give yourself pats on the back for how well you make your way through the world!!! (((((Hugs)))))
Colleges are hellbent upon making you wait as long as they possibly can. They are a bit evil and cold hearted! I hate waiting as well, I am sure you got in they should just send the darn letter already! I hope your mom is a little more helpful once you get the letter. If you are ever scared or afraid feel free to skype with me or call me on my cell phone.
I have a feeling this is all going to work . I believe it will do you a world of good to get away!