Cold day today
Dear Roger I started cleaning out some more drawers, once we seldom used but to store stuff in. I had put some archery glove, snowmobile gloves and etc in my oak dresser looking for work gloves the other day I realized I needed to clean it out. So I started: I saw your stocking cap - hugged it - smelled it as if there might still be your scent. There wasn't it.
THe last several days I have been tearing up, crying and just down right depressed I think. I did not go outside raining cats and dogs so slept in the afternoon for a couple of hours each day. Just nothing I really wanted to tackle or do. I think its because in just a few short weeks your death anniversary is here. Its funny how I used to say your passing not death. BUT death hits the gut & makes me face it. Gosh I still say "I can not believe you died"
I have decided it is not cost effective to drive into town, and work on Linda's horse blankets. Getting only one completed each day (5 hours a day) with her antiquated machine having its problems was not worth it I was wasting more gas than what I make, When I asked the sewing machine guy about bringing in a machine he wants to sell for me to try - Linda did not look happy about it. SO I think I better back off.
Cuddles is working out real well. She gets along with all the other animals, is not a yapper - and is quite cute. I am glad I dropped eveything Sat when Cassie called & went to the adopt a thon.
I applied for a pt job at the arborteum, just my type of job but today they were making a decision - I have not heard any word on an interview altho I put in application June 1st - just too many out of work applying. I so financially need a job. And this town sucks nothing.... SO IF you have any heavenly influence will you drop one in my lap please.
I miss you. And I am tired of being alone already. I know you are in a great place, you were so kind and a peace maker. Wish we were doing something together.
Love you Diane
THe last several days I have been tearing up, crying and just down right depressed I think. I did not go outside raining cats and dogs so slept in the afternoon for a couple of hours each day. Just nothing I really wanted to tackle or do. I think its because in just a few short weeks your death anniversary is here. Its funny how I used to say your passing not death. BUT death hits the gut & makes me face it. Gosh I still say "I can not believe you died"
I have decided it is not cost effective to drive into town, and work on Linda's horse blankets. Getting only one completed each day (5 hours a day) with her antiquated machine having its problems was not worth it I was wasting more gas than what I make, When I asked the sewing machine guy about bringing in a machine he wants to sell for me to try - Linda did not look happy about it. SO I think I better back off.
Cuddles is working out real well. She gets along with all the other animals, is not a yapper - and is quite cute. I am glad I dropped eveything Sat when Cassie called & went to the adopt a thon.
I applied for a pt job at the arborteum, just my type of job but today they were making a decision - I have not heard any word on an interview altho I put in application June 1st - just too many out of work applying. I so financially need a job. And this town sucks nothing.... SO IF you have any heavenly influence will you drop one in my lap please.
I miss you. And I am tired of being alone already. I know you are in a great place, you were so kind and a peace maker. Wish we were doing something together.
Love you Diane
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I\'m sorry you are having a hard time and the weather is not helping. I am in AZ and it is HOT at the moment. I hope a job comes your way soon.
Hugs, Diane
I\'m sorry you are having a hard time and the weather is not helping. I am in AZ and it is HOT at the moment. I hope a job comes your way soon.
Hugs, Diane
I find too that the weather makes a difference in how we feel. It has rained quite a bit here the last few days and I feel emotional as well. Thought I was doing pretty good but have had a few crying sprees myself.
Good luck on the job find, wishing you better days ahead....hugs
I\'m sorry you are having a hard time----these times come when it\'s harder and other times when it\'s OK.That\'s how it works for me anyway. The tears just roll out of the corners of my eyes and then it passes again. I know it\'s been hard for you looking for work, trying to sell. I do hope something comes up soon for you. I wish I could give you a big hug in person,
Sallie
I\'m sorry it\'s been a rough time Diane. i know those times too. I have had week-end days when I only got out of beed to go to the bathroom, and find the remote again.
Sometimes though we NEED to do that just to recharge because as you said and so rightly, it\'s TIRING being alkl we have to without them, and sometimes your whole body sees an opportunity, and takes it!!
I hope the sun shines on your today to help your mood, and hope that that job IS planted in your lap from upi on high. if anyone deserves a break it is you. You have done SO MUCH and time to get a bit of a gift!!! You wuld be theirs once they hire you!!!
HUGS and thinking of you Diane (another one)
The weariness of the whole thing gets me down sometimes..............do love having the company of pets...............did you get a dog or cat???...........Course could be a horse or snake too.......lol..............am now in the place where I don\'t want to do anything either...........know it will pass..............and then return.............hope a job does drop into your lap............think it will help raise your mood..........especially if it is one you will like..............wish we could make it \"all better\"................but we take heart knowing we can make it somewhat better....hugs.L