court

I am upset cuz I did not get my daughter back for full custroy and my mother in law have my daughter I been fight for a year I went to court last week I was hope I did get her back but that not work. I so upset about this I almost hurt myself. I love my daughter alots but i know she will be upset not living with me right now but i will visit her sometime not all the time. so we go back to court on july 20th that is long way. I start hate mysellf cuz did not get my daugther back this time. It is hard to get my daughter back. Some how i get her back with me  but the judge say she stay with her grandparent so i dont get her back. I went to talk to counsler last week after court went there and i was so crying hard told her did not get back.