Clueless

I just kind of found out I have had ADD all my life along with my ibs.On top of being sick eating everything and anything I have the worst memory.I can’t keep my attention on one thing straight for a period of time.I feel so embarassed and stupid.Everday when I try to b more and more stronger I get something new and worse.I just feel so alone.My dad gets me but how far can he help me out.To make things worse I have the worst mood swings ever and I have no control over it.Sometimes my mind shuts down completely.I can be super happy at one time and then be super depressed another time with no control of it and it’s driving me nuts.I feel like I’m wasting everyone’s time and hurting more people.Sometimes i feel like I’m over exaggerating things but that’s how my brain works sometimes.

I don’t know what to do.im going to join an alternative school or something becoz I’m missin so many of my classes.I don’t know what to do at all.i hate spreading all of this negativity and I wanna enjoy my school life.I wonder what other mental disorders I have.What is the point of all of this????