Clear My Mind

  I originally was not planning on writing anything today. But maybe it will help me get a better sleep tonight. There's only so many days I can walk around like a zombie.
  I gave myself something small to look forward to over the next few days. Hubby and I have agreed that Saturday mornings/early afternoons (Sunday if my hubby needs to work Saturday) will be when I have my time out of the house. This weekend, I will be starting Christmas shopping. I have decided I will explore a couple stores I have never been into, and I will also take myself to a restaurant I have never been to. You could say I am taking myself on a date lol.
  I have learned that problems can't be fixed the same way they were created (yep Dr Phil lol). So, time to change the attitude. I will not be home alone all the time. And when I do leave the house, I will not worry. I will not wonder if anyone misses me. And I will keep my phone in my pocket should an emergency arise, BUT I won't stare at it the entire time I am gone. My hubby will be completely responsible for his time with the kids. It's just how it's got to be, in order for me to find who I am. A few short hours doesn't seem like much, but perhaps being able to move a few paces slower will help.