Clean

I am in a good way today. I feel very awake and motivated. Not the usual overwhelming feeling that things aren’t getting accomplish or the feeling of why can’t I do more. My spirits are high. I have cleaned (deep clean) the kitchen, bathrooms and the living room. I don’t want to stop, for if I do I am afraid I will lose the motivation to keep doing “good”.
I typically clean my house for a couple of reasons. One of the reason is: just to maintain our living environment, get my mind off of problems, and to feed my controlling addiction. Cleaning seems to be the only thing that I can control the outcome to, which doesn’t affect others in a negative way. Today is different. I am feeling none of these as the principle reasons behind the overwrought behaviors I normally display. I feel eager to “live” I will not analysis it because when I do this, I end up thinking too much. I will embrace the motivation and let it be what it is. Hoping that it last a bit longer and wishing it will visit me more often.
Let’s clean the slate and make a new!