Christmas Gifts
Hello wonderful peops. I had an incredibly interesting meeting yesterday with the psychic who had offered to share Andy's messages with me. I will say that I start from a place of lifelong skepticism, and so my level of 'convincibility' is pretty low. Even so, I totally enjoyed her kind heartfelt belief that she was able to channel Andy's spirit and offer me his thoughts and wishes and love and gratitude. How could I not? How could I push any of that away? I would be pushing away and rejecting love from Andy which would be obviously insane.
So I just let it flow, and accepted the aspects which to me are a bit flakey as a sweet energy of love in the universe and did marvel at the bits of intelligence that she seemed to have on who he was and what he would bring to such a channelling.
Generally the messages were all good, very loving, happy, and positive. For example: Andy 'says' it is amazing where he is, and that he is in our hearts all the time but that he has also been hiking a lot... went to the Himalayas. LOL!
He also 'said' that he really appreciated that I framed something of his, that he thinks it is beautiful. Well... last week I framed a drawing and collage he did about 10 years ago, along with a photo from the hot air balloon ride that he and Heidi did in May. I would love to believe that the things we are doing to honor our loved ones who've passed, truly do still make them so happy!
He also 'said' that it's all about the experience, not 'stuff', not how many years you live... it's all about how much love and connection you build. He 'said' he was glad that he had lived fearlessly. He 'said' he could see a white light around me, and that no one needed to tell us how directly connected we would always be.
I think that Melissa was very compassionate and very sensitive. I really appreciated her giving me this time. A true gift at a sad and challenging stretch.
I am thinking what I will do is transcribe the whole conversation... it's about 30 minutes long (QUicktime Audio file) but 26 megabytes so too much to attach, right? I could put it on Youtube if I knew how to do that... and can you make those things private? Any advice would be nice. Once I figure it out, I am glad to share the whole thing. It's definitely coming your way.
Merry Christmas, my friends. If you are having a hard day, and really feel terribly alone, in agony of loss over someone you loved with all your heart, I offer you this: your love is a beautiful thing. I am so sorry you and I have had to know such pain. I don't know when you will feel 'better' or if you ever will. I hope you will find ways, as I hope I will, to make a good life and that the terrible pain will be something which we live through and around.
Last night at church I saw a little boy reading the GIft of the Magi, his part, and then returning to the pew and being hugged and kissed by his parents, and I had to struggle to not sob openly. Each child is so precious... and we do not know what the future holds for each. How lovely to feel the sweet innocence of THAT moment, to remember how we have those times in our hearts and minds to keep forever, like treasures in a box.
I think of the void left by Andy's death as a hole around which I and others he loved have gathered. We sing and laugh and weep and feast and say his name. It doesn't fill the void, it honors him. Just following my heart on this journey. And grateful for all the goodness and compassion I have found along the way.
Love, Sarah
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http://www.uuworld.org/spirit/articles/174504.shtml
A great article about how compassion means sharing, not trying to cheer someone up. I tried to paste the whole thing in here but something embedded in the format (EVEN when I tried to completely work it through a doc with plain text, etc... arg!) kept indenting it and making it cut off. So IF you have time and IF you are so inclined, I'd love to know what you think of it. Boy, this paragraph better not be indented or I will have to tell Andy to go back to the Himalayas!!! (JK, Bun-Bun!)
So I just let it flow, and accepted the aspects which to me are a bit flakey as a sweet energy of love in the universe and did marvel at the bits of intelligence that she seemed to have on who he was and what he would bring to such a channelling.
Generally the messages were all good, very loving, happy, and positive. For example: Andy 'says' it is amazing where he is, and that he is in our hearts all the time but that he has also been hiking a lot... went to the Himalayas. LOL!
He also 'said' that he really appreciated that I framed something of his, that he thinks it is beautiful. Well... last week I framed a drawing and collage he did about 10 years ago, along with a photo from the hot air balloon ride that he and Heidi did in May. I would love to believe that the things we are doing to honor our loved ones who've passed, truly do still make them so happy!
He also 'said' that it's all about the experience, not 'stuff', not how many years you live... it's all about how much love and connection you build. He 'said' he was glad that he had lived fearlessly. He 'said' he could see a white light around me, and that no one needed to tell us how directly connected we would always be.
I think that Melissa was very compassionate and very sensitive. I really appreciated her giving me this time. A true gift at a sad and challenging stretch.
I am thinking what I will do is transcribe the whole conversation... it's about 30 minutes long (QUicktime Audio file) but 26 megabytes so too much to attach, right? I could put it on Youtube if I knew how to do that... and can you make those things private? Any advice would be nice. Once I figure it out, I am glad to share the whole thing. It's definitely coming your way.
Merry Christmas, my friends. If you are having a hard day, and really feel terribly alone, in agony of loss over someone you loved with all your heart, I offer you this: your love is a beautiful thing. I am so sorry you and I have had to know such pain. I don't know when you will feel 'better' or if you ever will. I hope you will find ways, as I hope I will, to make a good life and that the terrible pain will be something which we live through and around.
Last night at church I saw a little boy reading the GIft of the Magi, his part, and then returning to the pew and being hugged and kissed by his parents, and I had to struggle to not sob openly. Each child is so precious... and we do not know what the future holds for each. How lovely to feel the sweet innocence of THAT moment, to remember how we have those times in our hearts and minds to keep forever, like treasures in a box.
I think of the void left by Andy's death as a hole around which I and others he loved have gathered. We sing and laugh and weep and feast and say his name. It doesn't fill the void, it honors him. Just following my heart on this journey. And grateful for all the goodness and compassion I have found along the way.
Love, Sarah
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http://www.uuworld.org/spirit/articles/174504.shtml
A great article about how compassion means sharing, not trying to cheer someone up. I tried to paste the whole thing in here but something embedded in the format (EVEN when I tried to completely work it through a doc with plain text, etc... arg!) kept indenting it and making it cut off. So IF you have time and IF you are so inclined, I'd love to know what you think of it. Boy, this paragraph better not be indented or I will have to tell Andy to go back to the Himalayas!!! (JK, Bun-Bun!)
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