Christmas and Pain Meds
Merry Christmas! I've decided to just keep up with the pain meds and pray for the best. I hate taking meds and I worry that I'll end up having to take more and more but maybe I won't.
Maybe the docs are right and the chronic pain will eventually ease but it just feels like forever. I'm ok now mentally and physically. I know my mood can change with the wind which scares me but once again...maybe it won't.
I'm truly trying to tap into the love that surrounds us. I'm imagining each breath in is a breath of love and each breath out lets out the pain. If I can at least control the chronic pain to some degree I will feel less anxious. I wish that I was stronger. I wish I had more tolerance for pain. My father fought evey minute of every day for breath yet he never let it get him down. If I could have half of his strength right now.
I have a followup with the specialist Jan 7th. I pray that the pain is reduced or gone without meds but I'll prepare for the worst. I'm not sure the doc will say anything different. I'm not sure there is much else to do but attempt to control the pain with meds and pray over time my body can adjust and tolerate.
If I can control the pain I can work on my mental health. I'm not sure why the chronic pain causes me such mental stress. It's like my life goes on hold when the pain flairs up. Like I can't move and I can't be happy. It's not like withdrawling from life is going to help. If anything it makes it worse.
I guess we can never know where we are going to end up. I can't start regretting my past nor fearing the future. That is the enemy to healing.
God please grant me your love and peace. Grant me the wisdom to follow the right path. Put the right people in my path. Allow me to give back to your people and creatures in healing them I heal myself.
Maybe the docs are right and the chronic pain will eventually ease but it just feels like forever. I'm ok now mentally and physically. I know my mood can change with the wind which scares me but once again...maybe it won't.
I'm truly trying to tap into the love that surrounds us. I'm imagining each breath in is a breath of love and each breath out lets out the pain. If I can at least control the chronic pain to some degree I will feel less anxious. I wish that I was stronger. I wish I had more tolerance for pain. My father fought evey minute of every day for breath yet he never let it get him down. If I could have half of his strength right now.
I have a followup with the specialist Jan 7th. I pray that the pain is reduced or gone without meds but I'll prepare for the worst. I'm not sure the doc will say anything different. I'm not sure there is much else to do but attempt to control the pain with meds and pray over time my body can adjust and tolerate.
If I can control the pain I can work on my mental health. I'm not sure why the chronic pain causes me such mental stress. It's like my life goes on hold when the pain flairs up. Like I can't move and I can't be happy. It's not like withdrawling from life is going to help. If anything it makes it worse.
I guess we can never know where we are going to end up. I can't start regretting my past nor fearing the future. That is the enemy to healing.
God please grant me your love and peace. Grant me the wisdom to follow the right path. Put the right people in my path. Allow me to give back to your people and creatures in healing them I heal myself.
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There are studies that say pain medication helps you to heal faster, That it is important to stay in front of it and not try to tough your way thru it. It allows your body to concentrate on healing instead of fighting pain. Just thought I would toss that out to you. I think I know how you feel about not wanting to take meds but sometimes they are necessary. Maybe by taking them as prescribed and doing whatever else helps you through it, you will find yourself healing and needing less and less. I do hope so. Wishing the best for you!