Christmas after four years

Christmas is just two days away and I am in the cycle of the kids being with my ex for the holiday. This is a sad time and memories of the Christmas with the kids are missed. I now look at my life as a time of making new memories for myself even if it is difficult for me. The change requires that I be purposeful in making plans to be out and about and with friends. The circle of friends has become more of a family for me this year than in the past. I made plans for a soup supper last evening just to make it something I do that is new for me as a single woman. 
My goals for the year will need to improve in my getting out and about and involved more through church groups or other outlets. I am struggling to find outlets that involve things I enjoy. My long work days make evenings hard to do things but I do have weekends and need to be intentional. 
My ex always told me I was too easily satisfied to stay home and not have something going on. I am a home body and there is really nothing wrong with that concept but I do see where I will need more involvement to be able to keep on a positive healing path. I think too much when I spend too many days alone. Involvement at work is one thing but it can't keep the emotions for love positive for me on a day to day basis. I work in the healing arts and I enjoy helping others. I just contemplating how to help myself now. 
The past three years have been my proving ground of my strength and the building of my faith. I really do like the depth of strength I have found in myself so i will keep working.