Christmas

12/28/2020

Christmas was okay got some stuff I liked and some stuff I didn't like but it was all good. This is my last day off from work have to be back at work tomorrow. I kind of dread going back to work, but I kind of like it being home with my family has sort of drove me crazy. I got more into creating things. I bought my son, and daughter these build a house kits and my son and I started building this Christmas house when he is not regressing and reliving his past in school with angry outburst he is pretty handy with the put together house art. Two problems the pieces are delicate so with our big hands we tend to break the pieces two pieces I have to glue back but it is okay. The second problem is we can't just leave the house puzzle pieces alone to dry, or nothing because every time we leave the pieces my son's grandma has to be everywhere nd clean off every service including the puzzle pieces. so frustrating the second time she rebroke the piece that was broken that I had drying so now I got to go back and take the dry glue off glue it back and wait another few hours it is wood glue so it does take some time to dry. She messes with everything I was making a model house out of scrap cardboard took me a hour to do the wooden roof using scrap wood she threw the whole thing away and I had already painted it to pissed me off. then I was making different season sculptures with the dry clay I bought she damaged the snowman I made had to redo it and omg just frustrating. Hate not having my own space to create things . Then I figured I have to make a make shift shed/ play house for my daughter to take my creative art outside, but again have to get the proper screws, and things to put it together, I watched some YouTube videos to build quick pallet deck but it looks like I will have to get the proper tools to do it. So I decide to clean out my room shred my documents I I don't need any more and clear out my shelf so at least I can have a small space to put my incomplete art projects and so she can't break the projects shoving them in boxes and stuff so carelessly breaking the projects. In other concerns it has been two days in a row my son has had violent outbursts and it really is driving me crazy I know he can't help it, but damn come on already the past is the past. I kind of look forward to going back to work so I don't have to deal with it. That is why I got him the house kits so maybe he can focus all that anger into creating something he built himself. I am thinking of getting him the model car kits to but I want to make sure he can do the house kits first. It takes focus, patience, and steady hands for the project so just maybe he can lose himself in the project and not his own inner demons. I don't know only time will tell. About work I hate it I am seriously considering looking for a different one maybe work at night I want my daytime to be free to pursue the things I want to create and do including photography, crafts ,model house and later car building and DIY things like a pallet deck and so on. I am depressed today and yesterday but I am trying to make myself feel better by creating things I just enjoy it immensely. If only I can get my outbuilding/craft shed/play house for my daughter put together then maybe my stress would go away and maybe my son's would to.