Choices
Losing weight isn't rocket science. I mean really: Calories eaten < calories burned = weight loss So why is it so gosh darn hard??? I want to eat better. I want to make good choices. I want to be fit and healthy. Then I sit there and make bad choices. Why do I do this to myself? Last night, I ate a Cinnabon. It was stale, so it didn't even taste that great to begin with. I had fresh strawberries, fat free whip cream and angel food cake that I had gotten for myself. That would have been the smarter choice. And with every bite, I just felt awful and was saying to myself all kinds of things: "Why am I eating this? I am off with my food today anyway, so why not eat this Cinnabon? I don't want to throw it away or waste it. It is there. I screwed up anyway, so I might as well just eat what I want." Stupid stuff. And I know for a fact I was not hungry. And I felt awful and guilty and uncomfortably full aftwards. (I didn't even finish the whole thing.) Yesterday really wasn't a bad day, although my steps were horrible (2200 steps for the day!) I seem to do a little better on days that I exercise really well. More motivated maybe? I went and did my workout at the Y this morning. 37 mins on the treadmill (mostly walking, but some running.) Also 25 minutes of upper body weights/abs/back and 5 minutes of stretching. I felt great when I got back. So far so good with the eating today: coffee and high fiber oatmeal for breakfast (10g of fiber! Whoo HOO!) I just had 2 slices of bread (out of whole grain unfortunately) with some natural peanut butter, and a bowl of strawberries and banana. Hopefully, I can keep this up. The cravings are just awful sometimes. Cravings for sweets (chocolate, any kind of cake, ice cream) and starches (bread, pasta, potatoes.) Occassionally it is the salty stuff like potato chips, or OMG, huge weakness, salty french fries! Hoping to avoid those things for a while and see if the craving die down to manageable levels. I cannot believe I have had 5 straight days in my home office to get work done. I cannot believe how behind I really was. The stress level is a little better. I really need like a month of breather time to really feel "normal" again. It's all mental for me, motivating myself to focus and get my work done, motivating myself to focus on getting my exercise in and making better choices. I am having a good day, but I am feeling fat today. It is just one of those days where no matter what I put on, I look in the mirror and feel awful. I took 3 outfits in the bathroom with me this AM to figure out what to wear today. I just have to get past this and keep going.
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I had the same thing tonight...we had fried perch for supper and I alloted 4 but they were quite large so I thought OK 3 and I would be in my calorie limit. I ate 2 and the rest of the sides with it and was full SO I am thinking this last piece of fish is \'legal\' - eat it. But I waited another 2 minutes and was so full that I did not.
We have to learn how to put the brakes on and know when to put the food down! It is not easy!
Next time, think of us, and drink a big glass of water. Wait 20 more minutes, and then see how you feel. Usually by then the craving has past and the trying to talk yourself out/in to it is subsiding.
It costs money to lose weight and to be overweight as well. So if you are worried about wasting it, don\'t be. Garbage it. I have walked out of McDonalds with my just purchased hot fudge sundae in my hand and walked straight over to the garbage can and tossed it out. Just ask Joyce!!!
I am glad the stress is calming down. We all have \"feeling fat\" days, but you are a beautiful person who should feel confident because you have so many friends here that love you!
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Just the fact that you recognized you were not enjoying the bun, and did not finish the bun, is GREAT! It shows your appetite for sweets is diminishing. It takes several months, sometimes longer, for our tastes in food to change, but sooner or later it happens! We do not crave or enjoy the bad foods like we used to. Blessings.
It\'s hard cuz of our age and peri-menopause...thats what i hear anyhoo!!! ;)
And boy that Cinabun looks and sounds alot better or more fun to eat (til afterwards) than that healthy stuff! ;)
I have been workin on not even having that in my house...it\'s easier that way! lol
But there is still stuff that pushes my yummy buttons for sure!
Glad you had a good day today!!! :)
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