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Since I don't have the job I did where I used this website, I have not been on much. I am at library it is good to be here, don't want to get to far from my support groups.
Getting in the habit of being a little less accountable I guess. Dating someone who attends a few of the same meetings as me which brings up a lot. We're getting along ok, I'm still spending time taking his son around. I spoke up and he gave me some gas money and has offered me some work helping out which is sort of a trip, but welcome in some ways. So yes I'm being productive and since I'm not so proactive in my quest or search for what I want and instead going along with his needs sometimes there is very much a tug o war going on. Today after work I bailed so fast so as to not get sucked in. I need time for me. I had a nice lunch and came here. I really need time to self.
Skipped some of yoga lately and just been relatively lazy at times, and sort of scared getting into this situation - seeming overly dependent on eachother in this relationship, it's sort of demanding and I told him - I've got his other car and I'm taking care of his son sometimes and now working, anyway I almost gave up and told him so, he said that was ok. I like him. I am learning a lot and still have much old issues resurfacing. Thank G O D for Al Anon and for my sobriety.
Getting in the habit of being a little less accountable I guess. Dating someone who attends a few of the same meetings as me which brings up a lot. We're getting along ok, I'm still spending time taking his son around. I spoke up and he gave me some gas money and has offered me some work helping out which is sort of a trip, but welcome in some ways. So yes I'm being productive and since I'm not so proactive in my quest or search for what I want and instead going along with his needs sometimes there is very much a tug o war going on. Today after work I bailed so fast so as to not get sucked in. I need time for me. I had a nice lunch and came here. I really need time to self.
Skipped some of yoga lately and just been relatively lazy at times, and sort of scared getting into this situation - seeming overly dependent on eachother in this relationship, it's sort of demanding and I told him - I've got his other car and I'm taking care of his son sometimes and now working, anyway I almost gave up and told him so, he said that was ok. I like him. I am learning a lot and still have much old issues resurfacing. Thank G O D for Al Anon and for my sobriety.
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I\'m glad to hear what\'s going on with you. I\'m sorry it\'s difficult. New arena of learning, I guess! I\'m feeling terrified of dating right now, and I think you\'re brave to be exploring it. Keep taking care of yourself