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Am on the brinks of divorce, out of my house and contacted a lawyer today just to be able to see my kids soon, talk to them some, am the only one that works and have an rv I really couldn't afford that I parked at my sisters for the moment, really pray we can come to some reasoning for the kids and not to lose everything I have worked to keep.
On that note, I am now 3 weeks sober, in Outpatient classes for alcohol, and will not turn to a drink to help me, I will get through this sober, is a great feeling, I pray I can repair relationships, not so much the marriage, just to not be against each other, only lawyers win then,.
Thanks, much love.
On that note, I am now 3 weeks sober, in Outpatient classes for alcohol, and will not turn to a drink to help me, I will get through this sober, is a great feeling, I pray I can repair relationships, not so much the marriage, just to not be against each other, only lawyers win then,.
Thanks, much love.
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I thought my marriage was headed that way at one point - I was angry and irritated and I didn\'t realize that it was due to my illness. Hope that you can find something that works for sake of the kids. Sometimes marriage counseling can help.
We have been through counseling, and both are separately in therapy, she has so much anger and rage I don\'t know if there is hope, but I will try to the end to make agreements as then my kids can know I tried to reconcile, is a hard thing, I will always love her, in many ways, but I have let her go also in many ways, married 26 years this month.
So sorry, tinman. I hope things don\'t get nasty. Congrats on your sobriety by the way. :)
Thanks Doug, it is up to her really, I had to retain a lawyer to be able to see my kids before a month away hearing, she is angry and trying to hurt me and succeeding, filed a PFA on me like a restraining order, I have never touched her or kids and would not, she has me though, it amounts to her thinking I lied last court time where I told her I never had a gun in my pocket, as I had shot bb guns with my kids the week before, she is saying my 8 year old says I had one, keep in mind, I am licensed to carry, just choose not to as thought she might do something like this, and starting drinking more making me question my sanity and her claim I call my 8 year old a liar, is an evil person right now who has no thought of me, is ok, as long as I see my kids I really have no thought left for her, but, this will bankrupt us, I only work, and now took on a camper note, as well as lost one steady monthly contract payment as the company sold from the looks, I checked myself into and intensive outpatient program I go to nightly to never drink again, 3rd of 6 week program 5:30-8:30 every night and at least 3 aa meetings a week, although I am getting 4-5 a week, is nothing I can do to convince her I will work with her, but I will continue to be sober regardless, not easy being alone, and no kids, but I also know this is a season, it will pass, God is good to me, and I trust He will work this out as long as I am doing what I should, all I can do now. tmi, but most of what it is with me, I ramped up drinking, as I never wanted a divorce, have went through enough hurt to though, and weary and just want to see my kiddos on a schedule now, that will keep me going.