Chapter 1: month 1

hello everyone,

I’m new to this board as well as the receiving end of infidelity pain and hurt. My husband and I have been together for 11 years and married for 8 years this upcoming May. Life was great in my perspective. We had 2 beautiful girls. We graduated from college. We bought a house. 3 weeeks ago from today my life has not been the same. My best friend to having several affairs during our marriage. I looked at him in a way that I had never done before. So much pain came crashing on me. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I thought we had typical problems. He had ask to pray and read a scripture prior to telling. I’m so hurt. I knew something was wrong when he came home late. He denied until 2 days lasted. I can tell he is remorseful but that still does reduce the pain. He said that they were only phiscal with no emotional connections. He told me that our communication was had caused him to internalized how he felt all these years. I’m so confused. I’m so hurt. We started counseling last month. I feel like I’m losing my sanit. I look at him with so much disbelief. How could my best friend hurt me so bad. It’s a physical pain. When will this stop. I miss smiling and and laughing. This has made me so depressed. I can’t focus at work. It so much to get out of bed to do my daily activities.