Changing my views
07/18/11
I have been so depressed lately that I think I have lost sight of what is real. I need to focus more on surviving as I stated in past posts. I think a key to that is understanding the real world instead of my messed up preception of it. I need to figure out what I want and go get it because thats what normal people do.
I want to move out of my parents house. My false view on this was that the only way this would be possible is if I got a big job in the game design industry and made lots of money. The reality of it is that I just need to get a full time job and roommates if I want to move out. I have my whole life ahead of me. I can get a game design job by working for several mod teams like I am doing now as side jobs while I work my full time job.
I want to fall in love. My false view on this was that I need to try and impress a girl into liking me and then try and figure out how to do everything right so she will like me. The reality is that I will never figure out how a woman thinks and so I should just do whatever the hell I want and let the chips fall where they may.
I want to be content with my life. My false view here is that everything needs to be a set way for me to be content. The reality is that I can be content any time I want. All I need to do is do what I want to do and stop holding myself back. I'm going to change my life and I'm going to do it by my rules and nobody else's!
I have been so depressed lately that I think I have lost sight of what is real. I need to focus more on surviving as I stated in past posts. I think a key to that is understanding the real world instead of my messed up preception of it. I need to figure out what I want and go get it because thats what normal people do.
I want to move out of my parents house. My false view on this was that the only way this would be possible is if I got a big job in the game design industry and made lots of money. The reality of it is that I just need to get a full time job and roommates if I want to move out. I have my whole life ahead of me. I can get a game design job by working for several mod teams like I am doing now as side jobs while I work my full time job.
I want to fall in love. My false view on this was that I need to try and impress a girl into liking me and then try and figure out how to do everything right so she will like me. The reality is that I will never figure out how a woman thinks and so I should just do whatever the hell I want and let the chips fall where they may.
I want to be content with my life. My false view here is that everything needs to be a set way for me to be content. The reality is that I can be content any time I want. All I need to do is do what I want to do and stop holding myself back. I'm going to change my life and I'm going to do it by my rules and nobody else's!
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huni what u jus said wrote..is exactly truth u jus took a BIGGG step in moving in the rite directions.. Keep it up :)
-Dia
well the first step to change is admitting that the way you are pursing things is not working out the way you would like it or as quickly as you like it. you just have to change the way you are pursing your goals, sounds like you have a good plan. if your roommates study in the same field as you do it\'d be even better. video game design is a tough field, don\'t get discourage.. keep truckin lol.
:) great inspiration, ur on the right track buddy :) keeeep going... And ur right about love, Gosh when u meet the one u will feel it inside, and the other person will want u just as much as u do... Really cant explain it, but u will knowwww it riiiighhhttt away, lol... keep it this way, take it easy pal...my prayers with u mr.motivator :)
Thanks for all of your support. I\'m trying my best, but its so hard.
but possible... keep that in mind dude!!