Changing my views

07/18/11
I have been so depressed lately that I think I have lost sight of what is real. I need to focus more on surviving as I stated in past posts. I think a key to that is understanding the real world instead of my messed up preception of it. I need to figure out what I want and go get it because thats what normal people do.
I want to move out of my parents house. My false view on this was that the only way this would be possible is if I got a big job in the game design industry and made lots of money. The reality of it is that I just need to get a full time job and roommates if I want to move out. I have my whole life ahead of me. I can get a game design job by working for several mod teams like I am doing now as side jobs while I work my full time job.
I want to fall in love. My false view on this was that I need to try and impress a girl into liking me and then try and figure out how to do everything right so she will like me. The reality is that I will never figure out how a woman thinks and so I should just do whatever the hell I want and let the chips fall where they may.
I want to be content with my life. My false view here is that everything needs to be a set way for me to be content. The reality is that I can be content any time I want. All I need to do is do what I want to do and stop holding myself back. I'm going to change my life and I'm going to do it by my rules and nobody else's!